The last four months of 2009 were pretty messy. Things were just not going well and everyone expected me just to blink once or twice and accept things for how they were and just get over it. Breaking up is never easy, but the worst was being cheated on, lied to, and see the person you cared about just walk away like you meant nothing at all to them. What a disappointment.
This year, 2010, has been very different for me though. I have been able to look past the experience, truly grow from it, and smile knowing that I am so much better on my own. I hear about him now and then, a mess (nothing changes with that guy), but all I feel is pity now. Crazy how you can go from so many emotions: anger, disgust, depression, anxiety, disappointment, pity, and happiness, all with one specific topic. I don't regret anything. I'm actually thankful because through this experience I was able to realize that I needed to be alone and truly concentrate on myself. I gave up so much to make someone else happy that I forgot about myself.
I'm in school now and working. I hadn't done the two things together until this semester so it's been a hard transition but now that the semester is ending, I feel like I have set my priorities straight and am enjoying every moment of it. Family life is never easy, but I haven't forgotten to think about myself over everything else. I can't help others if I'm a mess myself. ;-)
I'm not sure of what my future posts will be like, but knowing how RANDOM I am, I'm sure it'll be a little bit of everything (relationships, self-esteem, hair, makeup, digital design, fashion, etc.). Hope that whoever reads this will enjoy every bit of it.
-Melisa Dori
